Since I started boxing, I feel better than ever.
And I used to have a patient to deal with muscle pain in my back that I have never experienced before.
I am kind of feeling good right now. Because I felt like improving my punching skill a little bit with learning the correct form day by day.
About yesterday, I went out to a restaurant with my friend who is religious with Christian. At that time, he told me a theory from the Bible, and he said that like,,
If you believe the words you say by yourself, you will be a success with it.
However, I arbitrarily interpreted the word as “love and believe in yourself.” for my concern.
Unfortunately, sometimes I can’t believe the words which I say to myself. For example, I will be a rich guy, buy a big house, and have a wonderful wife and make a wonderful family. Those words are what I used to say a long time ago.
And I recently said to myself that I just want to feel free to live with a little money. That goal is big in my mind now.
Hey, me man, wait!
Before You (me) said that it has completely different goals before that! ( my conscience.)
My friend who is a guy told me a quote of success. He married. And have a wonderful wife and two children. Recently, he seems very motivated. Because I just established a company. On the other hand, I also felt that stress from him was hidden in the situation where he needed a lot of money to spend.
He said to me that “I want to be a rich man.”
However, I also felt that he wants to be a success.
After dinner with him, I was thinking to myself.
I wondered if I believed in what I was saying before for my future or my dream and my mind was messing about last night. Somehow, I was wondering if I’m just escaping from difficult dreams to an easier way of life.
As explained in the greed of the Buddhist language, and I realize that the desire for a big is evil and it is good to be content with what is now.
Now, I am learning Zen and meditate myself often. And why am I trying to get the opposite idea from what I used to think,,.
That conflict with it, and it is painful.
When I talked with him about a new business and talked about money, I just didn’t feel like it. Not long ago, I was actively trying to incorporate things that seemed to be profitable.
Where did my feelings go at that time?
I’m sure that I felt like he looked like me before somewhere, comparing all of myself in the past and ideal future with me now.
And I was wondering if I should have been more like having a great life than now. Currently, I have no children, no wife who promises the future. So I don’t need a big house for now.
However, when I thought this was good, compared with my friends, and my old obsession of I, It feels like starting “Moyamoya”. (a Japanese word that means I feel uneasy.)
For all the reason, It seems like I haven’t learned at all yet. However, I started to think that it was at the stage where I was trying to live in the “correct form for me”, little by little.
love and believe in yourself
Just say a word what you want to be and believe it.
No need to be avaricious with having a big money, a lovely wife, and a beautiful house.
You just need to accept what you have now, no matter how much you need it.
And believe what you.
The Bible’s theory and Buddhist’s word “greed” are a completely different way of telling us but I felt the meaning the same. And It’s good to just believe in yourself now without being shaken. It seems simple and surprisingly difficult.
However, combine both, I wanted to acquire a way of thinking that I need now.
Like, something like back muscle pain, when you do something right posture or think differently, and change your mind. It’s always painful somewhere. And it is very easy to deny yourself and suffer from thinking about what is wrong now.
Up until yesterday, I’ve been using my unexpected thoughts that I hadn’t even thought about “accept hardships.” then, we regard it as growth and know our true selves.
I don’t know that if life has the right answer.
But once again.
Just simply love and believe in yourself more, and I can survive with these words in my life.
Thank you for reading.
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